The Begining

Right I've started an accountability blog - I have a confession and need help to put it right, if you look at me, you will see my problem - its clearly not a secret.  I have to wear my sin around with me everywhere I go, I can't escape it, its always on show. I have an addiction to food! Unlike other addictions (smoking, alcohol, drugs) I cannot give it up completely or go on medication to ease the 'callings'.  I need it to survive and I face it daily.  This blog is purely about my journey with food and learning to be disciplined.

If I'm really honest, I'm not happy with my weight and from a vanity perspective would love to be thinner and look better.  Thinner people look good in clothes, generally look younger and are healthier (yes I know generalisations and not always the case) but I want to write out the myths I have believed and hopefully will go on a transforming journey with you.

However, its more than just vanity that I want to loose weight.  The main promptings of this, is that I want to honour God with my body and how I currently eat, is not honourable.  I want to be fit and healthy to serve God, my husband and my children.  I am not fit and healthy.  I want my children to have a healthy attitude to food and I am not modelling it to them.  I'm also aware that as time goes on the harder it is to change your body, habits and the more your looks fade.  I need to pursue something more than just self beauty and pursue Godly beauty. I do not want to be on an endless pursuit trying to re-capture youth but be comfortable in my own skin.  I don't want to be envious of other women's looks or bodies but truly know that I am made well.

I am not suggesting that this is the 'correct' way to loose weight but inviting you along on my journey.  Its a scary blog to write as I'm admitting to a problem I try to hide away from and I could well fail.  I hope for your support and pray for Gods grace and mercy as I seek to do his will with the body He has blessed me.